Random thoughts of a clueless mind

It's 5:15 in d morning and m supposed to be in bed at this hour of d day. O no, don't make me feel uneasy by supposing I've waken up early in d morning. This post is a result of my urge of writing down my heart before they get lost into my lethargy and I go to bed. Tomorrow is the date for BTP presentation and it was a nightout this night. We decided to visit busT b4 singing dreams and there I got the inspiration to post this crap here. It wasn't a creature or an event this time, it was a question, a usual one in general, but a big Q if u ask me. I was asked, 'Sir how do you feel when you think you r going to leave this campus within months ?'
I don't remember wat i replied to the gentleman, but I pondered long over it. How should I feel ? What should I feel ? What's going to be over ? --- a restrictive study full of craming stuff and professors' torcher or a life full of me likes, entertainment, adventure, tympass, listless nightouts, unbound day clocks ??? What's going to come next ? --- A life full of professionalism where you decide for yourself what and how you want to do things or a life full of dullness and workloads with words like entertainment lost deep under responsibilities and workload ???
Or am I really going to get a job ? It feels sometimes... what if I get no job ? What if I move out of this campus as I came in... jobless ? What would justify my wasting a seat of d most prestigious engineering institute of India ? But soon my blood group overshadows all my negative thoughts- B+ve. Who's eligible to a job if you don't get it ? You deserve a job better than all you've ever tried for. Just wait n watch. Yeah !!! that's how one can keep control of his thoughts. Inflate you positive energy and don't let anyone prick it, lest it should burst like Satyam did. What d fk is wrong with these ppl ? Isn't d market already suffering with jerks that these bastards are coming up with more and more bullshits ? If u r murmuring - this guy is taking out his frustration here, may be I am.
Anyways, leave it. I was telling you how I feel over leaving this campus. Ummm... many a times sentiyaap does come in mind... Leaving d mates u've Njoyed with 24*7... Leaving d groups u've njoyed all grades of movies with... separation from juniors asking for chapo and seeking ur help on all levels of problems... end of a weird life where normal clock of civilised society seems idiotic... end of proxies... end of GPLs... end of impulsive flawless abusing rhythms... all seems so cruel but unavoidable. I'd miss my nightouts ending in Haridwar, I'd miss reduction of my exam preparation time from a week to 4 days to 2 days to 2 hours per semester, I'd miss trips with my best pals.

Well, it's already 6:00am and am dozing off... wanted to write more.... but may be next time.

And ya... Happy Republic Day :-)